It is the time again, though this time around it is slightly earlier, before I get overwhelmed by other things.
This is the time I list down small milestones for the past biological-year.
I have to admit, it is quite difficult for me to recall…
November 2012: Distant Worlds Live in Malaysia
A very memorable orchestral concert, streams of memories filled with emotions gushing into your head. Distant Worlds is a definite must for Final Fantasy fans.
December 2012: Surviving the “Apocalypse”
Apparently we survived the so-called “apocalypse”. Yay.
2013
I couldn’t recall much about the events this year.
For this period of time, up until now, I am occupied by my career. Apart from sleeping and resting, most of my time is spent on work.
Most of my explorations this year are in fact circled around my field of work – virtualization, Java card, smart card OS reverse engineering, TWAIN, UX, MVC, ORM (Entity Framework), web services, web security, image processing, setup and deployment projects…
Though, I really hoped I could spend some time on other skills such as cooking, music instrument, language studies, electronics, interpersonal relationships…
I’m still struggling to squeeze them in, but my available time resources are frequently occupied by ad-hoc tasks until I somehow feel like a virtual resource pool that could be dynamically provisioned at any time.
To tell the truth, I would love to meet up with friends and listen to them talking about their lives, stroll around in malls, or watch the latest blockbuster in theatres, but what’s left of me is fatigue – social interaction became a stress to me (unless I’m only required to listen and don’t talk) and I rather coop inside my room to recharge myself, until the beginning of next business week arrives.
April 2013: Passing of Grandma
Witnessing the passing of grandma, whom has lived with us for the past 4 years, up to her final moments in life, had left an impression into my mind. The experience was as close as death itself.
It is not death (that scares me), it is the thought of death. It is probably not my death that I am afraid of, but the passing of people I care for, people that occupies the large part of my memories, people I depend on.
In the end our proof of existence is only the fragments of memories left in the living. If the memories are gone, so does the existence of the departed individual…
May 2013: Change
Putting Malaysian politics aside (don’t boo me please =w=), it is time for me to change my core principles.
I want to put emphasis on what I could do for people, and not what people should do, or could do. Death is a promise made to me from the moment I was born – my purpose of living is what I could do with the limited time given to me.
The world does not revolve around myself – I am a part of the world, I am a part of a whole, I am not the world, I am not everything.
I want to eliminate my inability to translate thoughts into actions; I want to wipe out shadows casted by my past that is preventing me from making a change.
May 2013: First Nendoroid
Seriously, it was a very huge surprise indeed :D