Since late morning, he sensed something was wrong today. Something was definitely wrong, the patterns are wrong.
Feels as if the balance he painstakingly kept, that should be perceived as neutral, got tipped over. His brain backtracked, checking and rechecking all of the decisions he had made, all of the possible outcomes if the decisions are different.
Perhaps it’s his past decisions came haunting him. Perhaps it’s because of his disclosure of the neutrality of the balance to someone has been wrongly perceived.
“18/9/2010 10:16:25 DN Pe Sem ;U: i pefa ny heh ob?
18/9/2010 10:17:30 DN Pomxa: E femco hol jboj xunemw. Zij muj jboj hjroewbj-ju-jba-duemj.
18/9/2010 10:18:12 DN Pomxa: Yui'ra avdaxjemw o hburj ur pumw omhlar?
18/9/2010 10:18:23 DN Pe Sem ;U: zujb uhu xom
18/9/2010 10:21:45 DN Pomxa: Jba jarn 'pefa' eh kary kowia. Eq yui dij ej em o kary hendpa, dira, pefa - jba omhlar eh yah. Zij E zapeaka, jba 'pefa' yui namjeumac eh nixb caadar. Jba fay xumhecarojeumh - E tihj naj yuir heh pahh jbom o numjb. E drajjy nixb cum'j fmul omyjbemw ozuij yuir heh. Yuir heh eh paokemw ju jba IF. Hu ju wu omyjbemw caadar, E cum'j jbemf ej'h duhhezpa.
18/9/2010 10:22:54 DN Pomxa: Lboj E fmul eh: - Hba'h qreamcpy, kary qreamcpy. - Hba'h xija (yah, E cum'j camy)
18/9/2010 10:23:11 DN Pomxa: Hu, cu yui waj lboj yui'ra ohfemw?
18/9/2010 10:23:19 DN Pe Sem ;U: yaod
18/9/2010 10:23:31 DN Pe Sem ;U: rananzar eh o haxraj zajlaam yui omc na”
Perhaps the balance shouldn’t be set to slant that much. Perhaps it’s because of all the factors above which contributed to the 3 possible external events that finally tipped over the balance.
His brain keeps coming up with hypothesis, possible branches outcomes – it was too much to be handled, but attempts to shut his brain has failed.
At the end of the day, yes, something indeed was wrong, the delicate balance has indeed failed catastrophically, and it is probably unrecoverable.
What actually happened? He doesn’t know. The riddles he can’t solve. What is left was regret – the setting of the balance was wrong, the past actions were wrong.
What now? Wear a masque, hold back the burn.
Yeah, the other side broke today, and I repaired it – almost cutting my finger in the process, though, I did inflicted a small cut on my thigh.
Yah. Cec boka jbeh conm ucc qaapemw, ej'h jba avoxjpy jba hona oh lboj yui qaap jba nunamj zaqura yuir ayah waj laj.
Ej lamj juu qor, urewemoppy ej hbuipc za o wuuc nanury zaqura hba paokah omc amc ej jbara - jirmac uij ju wu qirjbar jbom E jbuiwbj, zoxfqerac omc xraojac o kary olflorc hejiojeum.
E'n kary hurry ej jirmac uij jbeh loy.
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